Encouragement / Discouragement

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Much encouragement this week, for a rare change. We had an event of the sort that I usually hate, where we bring in a bunch of “great thinkers” and watch them tug at their elbow patches and pontificate on how we could do things better. Normally, these thinking sessions are so far removed from the political/Political realities that we work with here in the The Entire State that they can only be seen as endearingly naive (if I’m in a really generous mood), or (if I’m more bitter) as dangerously stupid. So I avoid these sessions like I avoid rats with rayguns. But this one was stunningly good, full of people with real ideas that I could really use, presented in a completely non-threatening way. In fact, I think that I was the only person who said a negative thing about the Department all day, and I was just being honest about our historical shortcomings and our seeming inability to get out the message on what we do for the people of the State. And I walked away from the session with some very solid ideas on how to achieve some of the things I really want to get done in the next year or two, things that I’ll really be able to point to as my contributions to public health and the environment. In addition, I met someone I’ve wanted to meet for a very long time, who once sat in my seat (not literally; this seat is brand spanking new), and who is a very respected thinker who gives me hope that there is life after this, and he was warm and receptive and invited me to visit him any time I’m in DC, which I certainly will do at the earliest opportunity.
And then I got home from that heady session to find the girls’ first report cards of the year, and they both did unbelievably well. They’re both quite smart and hard workers, so I expect them to get good grades, and I praise them for what they do well and try to offer support or suggestions in the areas where they need some improvement. Except that in this marking period, there weren’t any. Well, one: the younger one needs to either sit on her bottom during circle time, or sit in the back of the circle. Not because she’s disruptive when she’s up on her knees, but because she’s too tall, and blocks the other kids’ view.
That’s it. The major academic challenge my daughters face. And Hannah, who sometimes agonizes over math but does it quite well, actually did better in math than anything else (A+ instead of poor old A’s). Fantastic.
On the discouragement side, I thought my foot sprain and iliotibial band issues were finally over, and I’ve been better again about my stretching, but I went out at lunch today, first time this week, and went right back to where I had been. Hurting left foot, f’d up right ITB. Run, walk, stretch, repeat, all the way back from the 2 mile mark. Never gonna get to First Night this way.

Googlism

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Apparently, I’m defecating in my food tray. I couldn’t be more alarmed. On the other hand, perhaps the seismology thing will really work out for me. http://www.googlism.com
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An off day

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Too difficult to explain, but mornings that begin with screaming, fighting children tend not to go well after that.
Warren Zevon is my constant companion these days. Just got the two-disc set, “I’ll Sleep When I’m Dead.” The liner notes are skimpy, but hell, the songs speak for themselves. I’d love to hear updated versions of some of the older stuff, which suffered a bit in production but came crackling to life on the very raw “Learning to Flinch.” I guess that’s not to be.
Can someone explain to me how Henry Rollins, punk prince of angry poetry, came to be co-hosting a Learning Channel spin-off from “Junkyard Wars”?

Okay, maybe it WAS the last great sunny day

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I’m not complaining, because I’ve got a serious skiing jones, but how is it possible to go from a high of 59 on Friday to snow, sleet and freezing rain on Saturday, all without gale-force winds or skies of death or anything other than that deep, charcoal gray sky of winter? It was appropriate that it started to snow and get slippery as we were driving to Schenectady to see our first Warren Miller ski movie. There was a great festival atmosphere there at Proctor’s, everybody was having a good time and getting stoked about the season to come. This year’s movie (“Storm”) was really kick-ass, huge fun, scary thrills and scenes of physical accomplishment that are so close to perfection they can bring me almost to tears. Really. Sometimes I watch these movies, the Olympics, mountain-climbing, anything where tremendously gifted, highly trained people are really giving their all, and the sheer physical beauty of their effort just washes over me. Watching some of these skiers carving beautiful turns down nearly vertical faces does that for me. (And there are some days, in some conditions, when my skiing is going just right, when I can feel just a little bit of what they must feel — and it feels good.)
Then it was a long drive home on Route 20 in the snow . . . decided to skip the Thruway because I knew people would just be pinging off the road left and right. We saw several cars off the road right on 890, so it was only going to get worse. Took the local roads and things went slow but fine. Yesterday was a lazy day of work around the house while the girls went out in the very wet snow and got soaked to the skin. Today, a snow day, although the second storm of the day never materialized. Tomorrow, back to normal. Hopefully.

The last great sunny day

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I keep thinking that this is the last great warm sunny day of the year, but they keep on coming. It’s been great for midday runs, which I’ve been lucky enough to fit in a couple of times a week for the last few weeks. That’s a good thing, because I fell off the morning schedule when Lee broke her arm. I’ve been able to sneak in midday runs for the past few weeks, though, and it’s mostly been beautiful (too beautiful, because the locker room gets really crowded on nice days). I want to run the First Night Saratoga 5K, so I’ve got to get serious about training again. After the Race for the Cure, I wanted to pick up some speed and started training faster, and immediately ran into problems with a sprained left foot and ileotibial band problems on the right leg. The sprain feels 95% better, though rest alone really wasn’t enough, and now I’ve got a good stretch for the ITB that seems to have ironed that problem out. It’s always something, and you can’t stretch everything every day — after a while, I stop doing a stretch entirely and then I get hurt.
Christmas shopping is advancing nicely. Big Amazon order coming, with a couple of things for Lee. Picked up some stocking stuff for the kids at Kate’s on Tuesday. Need to find things for the difficult people (read: no actual interests in life).
Totally jazzed about Thanksgiving in New York. I got nervous over the inability of the Marriott to guarantee that we would have two beds, and I’m sure the room was a closet, so I switched us over to the DuMont on the east side. Less central location than Times Square, obviously, but that’s probably a good thing. Plus, it has a kitchen, so we can buy and eat normal food. We were shut out of just about everything that would require a ticket, but I’ve found a bunch of things that don’t (I mean, this is NEW YORK CITY, f’chrissake — there can never be a shortage of things to do). Kids want to go to Ellis Island, which I’m very iffy about, but if we could get down before the lines on Friday morning, maybe. Otherwise, we’ll take the Water Taxi from the west side down around the horn to Fulton Landing, and walk back across the Brooklyn Bridge, and that should make them happy. Bring comfortable shoes, everybody!
But most of all, we get to see the parade, live and in person. Got to figure out the best vantage point. The BEST vantage point would have been one of the rooms I regularly enjoy at the Mayflower, but those come at something of a premium on the morning of the parade, as they put you at eye level with the balloons.

The architecture of our past

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Douglas Coupland in “Polaroids of the Dead” wrote lovingly of the Lions Gate Bridge in Vancouver, how that landmark shaped the architecture of his imagination. Whether one lives in a place with such a grand landmark or not, there is bound to be some building or structure that has that effect. The World Trade Center towers filled that role for many, mostly after their fall. So many New York City landmarks shape imaginations, even for many who have never lived in the city. Bridges all over the world have this effect – a subtle visual subtext of the movie version of “The Wonder Boys” was a loving paean to the bridges of Pittsburgh. Sometimes it is hard to imagine our lives without these structures, but sometimes they are gone, just the same.
I have walked across the Brooklyn Bridge and the Golden Gate (skated up to it from Fort Point, in fact, which is a hell of a skate). I’ve been to some of the great monuments of our country. But the structures we grow up with are more intricately tied to us, more intimate and meaningful. I feel a tug just from seeing a Whipple truss bridge, hundreds of which once traversed the Erie Canal, a few of which can still be found, and which are linked to a time and place that I am linked to. But here is the structure, now a quarter-century gone, that I wish I could put back in place, just as it was:
Western Gateway Bridge, Schenectady to Scotia

This was the Western Gateway Bridge, seen from the Schenectady end. It was the grandest of all the bridges that had connected Schenectady across the isles of the Mohawk River with the village of Scotia. It was a long, graceful concrete structure, with lacy concrete x’s in its side walls, tall concrete light posts, lovely arched supports. It connected Schenectady to Scotia — I’d have to look up when it opened, though the 1930s seems right. It came down in 1973 or so, replaced by a low, unlovely, completely utilitarian set of steel spans that eliminated the dangerous curve so prominent in the center of the picture. Yes, cars did occasionally (or often) slide through that curve, through the wall (which I remember as held in place by steel cables) and down into the waiting Binnekill. That stream, a backwater of the Mohawk, is now gone, filled and made into parking and building space for the Schenectady County Community College, which overtook the Hotel Van Curler, seen in the foreground, once Schenectady’s premiere hotel. It still looks pretty much like that. The end of the bridge didn’t look quite this when I was young — those lovely grassy medians were gone. At the top end of the center median is a sign, which was later moved to a small park across from the hotel. The sign celebrates the founding of Schenectady with a cutout depiction of the 1690 Schenectady Massacre, a vision of violence no longer seen in civic displays but completely of a piece with our sense of the city when I was growing up. The Schenectady Massacre was a key sortie in the French and Indian War, in which French and Algonquins attacked the walled city on a winter night and murdered nearly everyone in it. We were all very proud of the massacre; in 3rd grade, we put on a play recreating it, which is hard to imagine doing in our current culture. Paul Dobradi and I portrayed Huntley and Brinkley, the NBC newsmen, reporting on the massacre, and I also played the role of Adam Vrooman, who survived the attack but watched his wife and children tomahawked before his very eyes. I put my little 8-year-old heart into it.
This is the bridge that I crossed hundreds of times — in cars, yes, but also in a perambulator, a baby stroller, on foot, on bicycle. My mother used to pop me in the pram and stroll across the bridge, every day (she says). I remember going downtown often, visiting my grandmother at the restaurant where she worked and getting a fresh, hot order of fries from the cook. We would shop in the old Wallace’s or Carl’s or Barney’s or Kresge’s or Woolworth’s — all those stores within a couple blocks of each other. Downtown Schenectady was in decay even then, but just barely. People had moved out to the suburbs and some of the shopping was going with it, but the big stores were all still downtown and it probably seemed like they always would be. It was the ’70s, and the bridge was gone, by the time downtown really crashed. GE shrank, the Crosstown Arterial changed traffic patterns, and bridges stopped being civic symbols and became ways to get cars across rivers that were a little too big to fill in. (Slowly, we are getting back to building beautiful things on the public dime, but for a long time we let utility and cost be our only design guides, and for this we should be ashamed. It is not a sin for the public to build beautiful things.)
I will always remember walking across that bridge, the concrete crumbling, looking through the criss-cross patterns down to the Mohawk River below, the wind blowing brisk and cold. That will always be the bridge that I walk.

So much city, yada yada

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Finally got to go back to New York after a long hiatus in travel, partly imposed by work requirements and partly impose by my wife’s broken arm, which rendered her somewhat useless in the “Responding to Childhood Emergencies with a Motor Vehicle” department. Rained like crazy, though. Wet feet throughout the day, combined with a lined raincoat that was just way too warm. Typical fall visit to the City, in other words. Took a later train down, and got to see our sparkling new train station for the first time. I must say, it’s beautiful, inviting, a delightful place to be. The cafe was busy, the newsstand was doing a business, and it was all just delightful. I’m not saying it’s worth $65 million or so, but hell, the money’s spent, let’s enjoy it. The bridge over the tracks is particularly pleasant, as it has seating area from which one can simply sit and watch the trains. A nice addition to the area and the system. Now if only Amtrak stays solvent for another few months. (I’m actually torn on that one, because I think we’d end up with Metro North service that would be, most likely, vastly cheaper. But would we still have the train option to DC — that’s the question.)
Despite the rain, got up to Kate’s Paperie (listen, I have got to start using the N/R when appropriate — I won’t even say how I got there), found a little anniversary present for Lee and a bunch of little Christmas presents for the girls and others. Best of all, Kate’s had umbrella bags so you didn’t have to slosh a wet brollie all over the store. Should have taken a bunch of spares. One of my favorite stores in the city, and I hardly ever get to go there because it’s not quite downtown , and it’s not midtown. Going there is always a side trip. But I was glad I went. I even got back up to Penn in time for the 2:45, despite somehow getting turned around at the 6th Ave. N/R station. Well, it was a pleasure just to be out of Albany. But then again, it usually is.
I was reading Douglas Coupland’s “Polaroids from the Dead” on the train. He had a nice piece about how certain architecture of your hometown can become the architecture of your mind, which I’d like to riff on later. Very much set me to thinking. The beginning of the book is a series of depictions of Grateful Dead culture, which wasn’t quite what I expected it to be. I’ve never had even the slightest affinity for the Dead. In college, I was often told by Deadhead friends (this was before the pivotal MTV video that apparently sent the band over the edge) that I just hadn’t given the music enough of a chance. Well, over those years I heard many hundreds of hours of their music, and it never grew on me even slightly. I got it, I understood why people were attracted to it and that whole dumb stare-at-your-fingernails post-hippie culture. I understood it, but I didn’t like it at all. Something about the Dead and their followers fundamentally grates on me. But the writing is clear, as always with Coupland, and the rest of the book is quite interesting.
More anon.

My sprained foot

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My sprained foot (not a film starring Daniel Day-Lewis, and in no way related to The Christy Mathewson Story) (perhaps I’ll explain that someday) is driving me crazy. I gave it a rest, not running for a week, and while I didn’t stretch as much as I should have, I gave it ample time to get over itself. Then I had it massaged on Tuesday, and it really should be ready to run. But it’s not. Ran for an hour at lunch and I just can’t get it to loosen up. And the pain there causes tensing up around the knee in my other leg, so I had to stop and stretch several times during my run. But it was beautiful, sunny and warmish out. I could have gone in shorts, but I was in tights and a vest and quite comfy. So, more stretching tonight, then I’ll try to run on it tomorrow during Bekah’s ballet class, and then on Sunday I have the morning to take a bike ride. Planning on running up to Glens Falls and doing the path to Lake George and back, though maybe I’ll bag all the driving and just go down to Columbia County somewhere and do some back roads. I’ll sort it out. But I love that path, especially on blades — it’s extremely scenic, an old rail bed through the Adirondacks, dumping you at the foot of Lake George. But it’s flattish for a bike (and not too bad on blades, though there are some hills to be treated with respect. I once had a woman on bike stop and watch me swizzle my way down a hill, admiring my technique. I almost never use the brake. Brakes are for pussies!), so perhaps I’ll venture down Kinderhook way. I’d do the Harlem Valley rail trail, but it is VERY flat, and not entirely connected yet. Nice for blading, but I would think a little boring on a bike, especially if I have to drive there.
I’ve gotta find a good bike rack for storing all these bikes in the garage, too. They’re taking up too much space, so I may give in and buy an expensive pole that takes up a lot less space. Hanging them from the ceiling is impractical, since then only I can get them down. With two canoes and all the camping gear, I’m OUT of wall space, so that doesn’t help. The price we pay for being sporting enthusiasts!
Gotta get down the snowshoes soon, too, and I’ve gotta get the kids their season ski rentals. Whiteface and Belleayre are open, and I’m jonesing for some serious skiing.

Winona Ryder needs comforting

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Well, it’s not like I’m hopping on a jet to LA or anything. But still, the opportunity . . .
Okay, this post degraded before it had even begun. Time to get my head together and forget how I burned for her in “Heathers.” Forget that my dislike of Ethan Hawke is based entirely on the fact that Winona couldn’t see that HE wasn’t good enough for her, either (“Reality Bites” – I had no time for slackers). Why couldn’t she see that he was just a pose with a soul patch? Or maybe I was just pissed off because I had given up writing and gone to work for The Man. Damn The Man!
Okay, I really need for the coffee to kick in now, before I say something even more stupid…

Winning isn’t everything…

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But it sure puts food on the table. Nice, clean win for the Gov. While I could never quite scrounge up actual doubt that we would win, there was the possibility that it would be much closer than expected. And, of course, Cuomo’s people never saw it coming in ’94. So it was nice to see the policies and the person vindicated, and to see that the people of the state wouldn’t vote for a candidate who seemed to view the job as his logical next step, or one who played the tired old song about running the state like a business. The state ain’t a business. It’s not supposed to be a business. Get off this….
So, now, some level of security for a while and a million more things to do. I’m very thrilled NYC got the Olympic bid for the USA, because I’d really really really like to be involved in that if we get the final bid. We’ve got to rebuild lower Manhattan. We’ve got to clean up construction diesel emissions. And so many other things. How fucking cool is it that I get to be involved in that? (When I start talking about public administration, I start to sound like Wil Wheaton. I can’t help it.)
The girls were actually a little nervous last night, and I was probably more dismissive than I should have been. When I was 6 or 7 my dad changed jobs, and it was a little stressful. I don’t remember if he was out of work when he switched, or going to be laid off, or if he just made a good move, but I remember it as scary for me that he was going to change jobs. When I left the Senate, Hannah wasn’t even 2, and it confused and worried her that I went to “new work”. She thought that the buildings at the plaza (“old work”) would actually disappear some day. We kept having to assure her that everything was fine, that the buildings would stay there (we drove through it every morning on the way to day care, so she may have had concern for its physical state), that other people still worked there but that I didn’t. Then when she was almost 4, and Bekah was a baby, I changed locations again, but then I was Boss of the Beach, which made me way cool. For a while. Then I went back to where I had been, and by the time we moved downtown last year, neither of them was too concerned. Then last week it finally connected that I worked for the Governor, and that if the Governor lost his job, I would lose mine. Then they got a little nervous. But, as I said, not to worry….
I often have people from outside the appointee realm comment on how they just couldn’t live with that uncertainty — many of them are civil servants, safe no matter what. But really, it’s a lot better than being a middle drone or a worker in a sizeable corporation these days, where your fate doesn’t depend on your performance, your boss’s performance, or much of anything else besides your stock price and whether some deal-making asshole has arranged to have your company sucked up into some other company’s over-leveraged maw. THAT’s what would suck. One thing I liked about small business was that you succeeded, or you didn’t, and it mostly depended on what you did. It was affected by the economy, sure, and if you were in a business there wasn’t much call for, or if, as in the case of typesetting, the handwriting was on the wall, then you’d do best to find another line of work. (Which I did.) But you weren’t subject to takeovers, you didn’t have to deliver to shareholders, and you made so little money that going out of business would almost HAVE to improve your fortunes.
So, four more years!